Its funny, how we feel guilt for things that are not our fault, and shame for things we couldn't control or prevent. How we seem to live in the painful things in our past, instead of the present. I mean for me, I know, for the most part even when I am talking to my friends, family, doing schoolwork, being in class, trying to sleep, though I look and talk like I am engaged, I am always living in the hell of my childhood and the loss of some of the dearest people in my life. People who haven't been through what I have or something similar, keep saying nonsense such as "that happened awhile ago move on", well it is not as simple as "moving on". To those saying such nonsense, I say with confidence, you would have died or given up long ago if you would have experienced the things I and I could name many others have. While there is some truth, to what you say it does not just happen. My point? Don't try to act as though you understand, because you never will, your not me, you don't know it all, you don't know whats best for me, and you don't know what I struggle with daily, so I'd love for you to not say such thing's, about something you can't begin to understand.
This does not go out to much of the people on my DA its only intended for certain people to fully understand, and I'm just annoyed and felt the need to vent on DA for some reason. *-*